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Inside Oneself
I’ve been locked up in my room for a week now. It’s mostly by choice ( if having crippling depressing is a choice). I haven’t showered since the last time I went outside, and I haven’t been eating either. I think about my life and everything I haven’t done. I think about my family. I think about my friends. I think about everything that ever brought me joy and all I can feel is apathy. You’re pathetic. I know, but I need to keep trying, right? My head hurts and all I want to do is cry and sleep. Sleep and cry; look at the sky from my window, it doesn’t call anymore. It doesn’t bring any hope or joy or happiness. What are you doing? I ask myself that question every day, wondering if I’ll ever find my purpose for being. I walk back to my bed. I stare at the stairs that lead up to it for what feels like an eternity. Instead, I sit down on the hard, cold floor.
By Jay Cordero6 years ago in Psyche
My Past Abuse is the only way I can start.
I grew up poor, with no idea about mental illness,what being gay was about and was always the fat girl. My story starts with the only thing I know to start it with. I wish I didn't have to start here, everything inside of me doesn't want to have to write this. The scapegoat in my family, while maybe not on purpose but it still happened. I was born to my mother when she was 15 years old. And we went through hell and back those first few years. She found my father when I was three, but we were always poor and things got worse when my sisters were born when I was nine and ten years old. By the time I was 12 I had a baby brother and both parents worked and I was the caregiver between shifts. All this time I had hidden secrets in my brain. Secrets I shoved full of food, and no one noticed the extreme pain I was in…
By Crys 6 years ago in Psyche
Should I Do This, Or This, Or That?
Living with an inner voice Hello Vocal friends! How are you feeling today? I am proud of you for clicking on this article and making a choice to be here today. I know first hand how difficult it can be dealing with Anxiety every day, morning, evening, and night. I found what best helped me is reading other’s stories, and experience’s living with Anxiety. It helps to make me feel not so alone, not "CrAzY". It’s hard to accept the harsh reality of what we have to go through every day, but just taking a little time out of our day to embrace our anxiety will help us feel free.
By a.secretcode6 years ago in Psyche
Bodily Truth
“Papa!”, “Malish?”. I miss his voice, I miss him. I missed my chance to get the answers, even though there were times I had asked for them. I had questions about things that had happened, that he said I was too young to know the answers too. He would tell me one day as papas do. That day would never come. But I realize the answers I am looking for live within me, and I can still discover them if I try to piece together the puzzle between body and mind. This is a hope for healing, and for the acknowledgment of truth.
By Alissa Varchaver6 years ago in Psyche
Anorexia
This is never an easy topic to discuss. The word anorexia might sound harmless to some but it is in fact a mental illness. As someone that has suffered from anorexia, I can tell you that it has a large part to do with the mindset of that individual.
By The SS6 years ago in Psyche
The ghosts of my past
SEBRING FLORIDA 2011 Eleven year old Autumn Raine (that is me) and my mother and two sisters moved to this little four bedroom house on Kerry Dr in Sebring, Florida.We were new to the area and our neighbor (Scott Wilkie) came over to welcome us and invite us to his church down the road, Sparta Road Baptist. He was very approachable and nice, so we decided to give it a try. My mother was pregnant with my little brother Gavin. We have no extended family, so we didn't see the harm in finding a family at church. Soon after my little brother was born, my mother and Scott started dating. Since we lived right next door, my mother and Scott decided it would be smarter financially to move in together. So, that is what we did. Everything was going great up until about two or three months of living there. Then, Scotts true colors came out.
By Autumn Raine Moulton-Pierce6 years ago in Psyche
How to be happy while fighting with depression.
Being happy when you have depression is definitely not the easiest thing in the world. For instance yesterday I was happy all day. My husband and I rearranged our room together yesterday. That doesn’t sound fun at all and honestly rearranging a bedroom is not fun at all. Normally rearranging a room is stressful, but I was happy and having fun and we kept picking on each other and laughing. Today I feel like being happy takes work and that if one little thing goes wrong then my entire day is just ruined.
By Destiny Wooldridge6 years ago in Psyche
Letting Go : The Emergency Exit
I believe that what we call our personality, this aggregation of subtle and predominant attitudes, philosophies, fears, tastes and impulses, this assembling of conflicting thoughts, ideas and other inner battles, is the result of all the experiences that we had to face during our respective lives. Thinking that it's a fixed attribute can't be further from the truth. It's evolving as we adapt to our reality. Of course genetics play a part ; there's things that we can't avoid nor choose, but, all things considered, I'll forever maintain that personality is more nurtural than natural.
By Livier Lefrank6 years ago in Psyche
Illuminating Narcissism
In this part of the series on the topic of narcissism I want to talk a little or well a lot on what some of the signs are that you are in fact dealing with someone who I believe has lost their way and their soul is without depth.
By Angela Fosnaugh6 years ago in Psyche
Anxieties
It’s honestly not the easiest thing to discuss but it’s also not that hard to feel. Although some might say it is all in the mind, or better yet “it’s all in your head”. And the people who say that rather try not to understand.
By Katherine Penate6 years ago in Psyche
Living with D.I.D.
Dissociative Identity Disorder (D.I.D) formerly known as Multiple Personality Disorder or MPD is a complex. It starts with early childhood trauma and a need to protect oneself from abuse, trauma, and harm. How does this start you ask? Well it varies from person to person. Mine started with early childhood emotional abuse and neglect, from the least expected person.
By Lydia Wegner6 years ago in Psyche
Low Energy Days
Today I woke up to what I call a 'low energy day'. I decided years ago that I would use this term anytime I am feeling low and I am in fear that my depression is resurfacing. After unnecessary panicking, sometimes it turns out that it is just a day or two of feeling disconnected and unmotivated. Rarely is it the start of a major depressive episode. In cognitive behavioral therapy, we learn that our word choices are critically important and can impact how we feel. A ‘depressed’ day feels hopeless but a ‘low energy’ day is something I feel like I can manage through with the hopes of a brighter tomorrow.
By Susan Shier6 years ago in Psyche