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What it is like to live with Major Depression
Five years old – that’s the first time I remember thinking that if I wasn’t around then everyone would be happier and better off. I remember seeing the commercials asking people to “adopt” one of the starving children in Africa and I felt, no, I knew deep in my soul that it was somehow MY fault that those children were starving. I remember thinking that if I ran away, then any problems my parents had would be gone. As I grew older, running away morphed into killing myself. Those starving kids in Africa, well, they were still somehow my fault and any problems my parents had were still my fault. If my parents were struggling financially or couldn’t afford something that my sister or I wanted, I just knew that if I hadn’t been born, then none of that would have been a problem. I never told my parents how I felt. I never told anyone. I didn’t want to hurt anyone by telling them. I never told anyone about my suicide attempts. I knew that no one would understand just what it is like to live with and battle Major Depression.
By Julie Botsay Jacobson5 years ago in Psyche
BASIC WAYS IN WHICH HUMAN MINDS CAN DYSFUNCTION
When a child is born, the mind is not fully developed. In the early years of growth, there is a lot of physical and mental development that happens. The brain of a human fully develops after a few years of birth and after that, there are only modifications that can happen.
By Rahul Shakya5 years ago in Psyche
A Life Unimagined
Dealing with the guilt and pain once the decision to leave has been made, is almost unbearable. Of course, the initial belief in deserving something better, and the determination to make healthier choices helps to keep the feelings just under the surface for a while.
By Misty Boling5 years ago in Psyche
SELF-DIAGNOSIS
Patient: What’s up Doc? Can you tell me what's wrong with me? Why do I feel this way? Why doesn’t it stop? Therapist: Q. Patient: Self loathing you say. I could of diagnosed that. I’m constantly bitching about my own problems. Hating myself. Paranoid everyones trying to take advantage of me. Especially my friends. Nobody loves me. I barely exist.
By The Rambling Dropout5 years ago in Psyche
Psychological Openness as a Black Woman in America
This topic will probably upset some people to hear but, hear me out before you judge. Black people are often neglected when it comes to healthcare as a whole. Then we are afraid of “the system.” When I say that, “the system,” I mean if we release or speak too much, it leads us down a path of trouble, not a healing way. How can you be honest if you are worried about your children being taken away from if you say, “too much.” You are afraid they might put something down on your medical record that might “taint” your life in some capacity later on down the road.
By Nia on Air5 years ago in Psyche
Let's Talk About Drugs
Let's talk about drugs. I've done them all. So after years of bad decisions I've got some stories to tell. Maybe a little background first. I'm Luc or Lucas known better as Lucifer, 31, spent my life moving around and was always the odd kid. This made it easy for me to get in with the "wrong crowd" real fast. Anyway I'll come back to that at a later time. So as mentioned I was in with some shady people over the years. I for a time worked as an enforcer for a lady who sold drugs for a well known bike club, in Alberta. I was 21 when I was introduced. It was after buying substantial quantities of meth and coke, personal use but still a half oz. of each at the start... Anyway I was after having been dismissed from service for related reasons and my fiancé had left me after fucking around on me with a cop and filing false charges against me, so I was young, angry, and willing to fight with a heavy addiction problem. I got introduced and apparently they seen potential because I got offered work before I wanted or needed it. I accepted anyway. The first job was to deal with an informant. Guy was a piece of shit, used to threaten my buddy's old lady and her 4 year old daughter, guy even tried to steal my car once...
By Lucas Veres5 years ago in Psyche
Mental Health
Now this is a very touchy subject so I’m just going to tell it how I see it, how it makes me feel. Everyone has their own opinions, and some people feel like it shouldn’t be talked about because how can you really tell when some one is actually suffering or just using it as an excuse. Now obviously if this does offend people I apologise, I am not trying to offend but everyone has their own views.
By collette_235 years ago in Psyche
How My Eating Disorder Saved Me
Eating disorders are strange beasts. They come in all shapes and sizes. Mine came in the form of a huge black mass. Something indescribably dark and consuming. It sat on my chest and weighed me down. It drowned me like an anchor chained to my ankles, pulling me deeper and deeper into an ocean of pain. It bore into my soul until there was only a shadow of me left. It could have killed me.
By Aubrey Powell5 years ago in Psyche
Fighting Depression with Gratitude
I'm so happy to be living a privileged life with so many opportunities. And no. I'm not rich. I do not have a net worth of up to a million pounds. But... I'm alive, I have a job, I live in a house, and I have food and clean water.
By Amby O Asonye5 years ago in Psyche
The Incident.
Once upon a time, there was a 15-year-old girl who didn’t have a care in the world. She had a good life with awesome parents, a sibling she would die for, dependable friends, and finally a very loving boyfriend. She was happy. Then, on a cold night in February, everything changed.
By Katherine Patterson5 years ago in Psyche
