Addict Halfway House to Apartment SCAM!!

This is the middle of my road to recovery. I am incredibly proud of how far I come in these last 9 months. I am so proud to say that I have been clean and sober for 9 months and have not slipped once. And I'm not knocking on wood because I'm simply not going to let that happen. The biggest thing that I have learned is that no matter what is thrown at me, I am in control of my actions. I cannot control other peoples behaviors, but I can control mine.

I have been in this halfway house since July and to say that I am about at my breaking point is under exaggerating things. I have stayed the course, done the groups, the home work, the therapy. I've done everything I am supposed to. Except for one thing. I let myself fall in love.

Kp and I have been together for 4 months and we a have a very great relationship with a solid foundation forming. Recently, with my discharge date coming and his living situation, we discussed moving in together. This was a huge step for us. I remember getting his call saying that he had done a lot of thinking and he really thinks that moving in together would be a goof thing for us. You see, KP will be leaving in April for another school in the Military for 10 months so we need to figure out if this is something to pursue.

Well I found and apartment and I was so excited. My heat was racing with a million different thoughts. Like oh my god I get to come home to this amazing man every night. I get to curl up with him in comfy clothes and just relax. And of course our sex life is on fire (more stories to come on that). It just was an exciting feeling being ready to take that next step.

So I found a small one bedroom apartment that was cute, appeared well kept and was furnished for $800/month and I showed KP and he agreed. So I began contacting this "tenant." The conversation went well her name "name" was Marry Williams and she was a travel RN who would be gone for 8 months and was just looking to sub lease. She sent us the application which looked legit. There was proper grammar, no wording issues, no red flags. Once that was finished it was sent to the landlord, "Daniel Hu"

It had been explained to me that he lives in CA, which was no big deal. I asked more questions about the lease and the apartment. He said It was a safe area, "Mary" had rented from him for 4 years with no issues. He approved our application and then sent out a lease for us all to sign.

I was a little leery once he wanted us to sign the lease without actually seeing the place but, with COVID it seemed plausible right? I filled out the Lease and returned it to the landlord but only after I verified with law enforcement that there were no complaints on any individuals in question, or on the property, or attached to the phone numbers and sure enough they all came back clean. So, we proceeded.

Thanksgiving day is when it all spiraled out of control. I was having a hard time getting the landlord to get his story straight. He wanted me to send him the money and then he would have the handyman go let us in. That was a huge red flag. I of course said no and countered with I will make the payment in the driveway of the house with the handyman there to let us in as soon as the transaction was complete. The landlord then said that the handy man had no key. KP was talking to him on the phone at this point because he a little more even tempered than I am but he called him out on the fact that he said he would have the handyman let us in as soon as payment was clear and when KP asked how he could get the keys to NY from CA in one day. The landlord went back saying that he put it in the lease that we can have the money back if we didn't like the apartment. KP said "all I have is a piece of paper saying you will return my money and you expect me to just be ok with that? That does not sit well with me." At this moment I am so thankful to have this man in my life because I don't know how I would have handled it. KP hung up the phone and just like that everything fell apart.

This was a huge thing for KP and I and I felt like a failure. I let him down and myself down. We gave our landlords our notice that we were leaving so now we are in a serious bind. KP ended up staying with and old friend with benefits and its killing me. How am I supposed to be ok with him sleeping in the one bedroom apartment with a girl he used to fuck pretty regularly while he was married, he was in an open marriage which he know I will never do, but there is years of chemistry and connection there. connection that he and I have not had the chance to build up. The though of her with his head on his lap or in her bed at night makes me cry and panic every time I think about it. He sees it as what a friend would do. I see it as intimacy that we haven't had the chance to have. So as I sit here scammed out of an apartment, no place to live come Monday, a new job starting on Monday as well, but the man I'm 100% in love with is staying with another woman. Another woman's bed, cooking dinner for another woman, watching TV and movies curled up with her. And I'm Just trying to figure out how to get out of this mess that I don't deserve.

I knew staying off drugs would be hard, but right now with all this stress and lack of emergency funding available I'm still sober. I am broke and trying to fix this but I know using will only hurt me. I just need some help, some more strength and more drive because I cannot live feeling like this!