you should not get to matter

you should not be a name I remember

a word uttered from my lips

or a face in my memory

But since your body was forced on mine

I fear that’s something

you will always be

I should not have to wake up

with these thoughts in my head

Or be left tossing and turning all night

In a bed where innocence was stolen

A place I can no longer sleep

from what has been broken

And where silence

is the loudest memory.

You should not get to matter to me

As my thoughts and feelings mattered

so little to you

In a moment

where you professed your love

And then took action

without permission