Wishing For Understanding

If only my love was enough to disguise the pain that ails me.

If only his lovely attempt to be could truly fullfill me

Even when we lay close I feel loneliness in my soul

This depression has taken control

Our trust issues finally taking a toll

I need him, I think

Because even my peaceful solitude leads me to dream of him

Dreams of who I wish he would be for me

I get high off the possibity

It pains me to stay and breaks me to walk away

I know you will never be what I need

But the hope for change never leaves

How could I give up on my perfect possiblity

Sincerely, A real Baby Momma