Who Am I?

Who am I

I am lost, envious, destructive

And above all I'm the cloud of smoke traveling above the Bull-Shark if you know understand.

Sometimes I'm right and sometimes I'm.....

unsure and need to recount my days

Overall I'm in need for a change of life or atmosphere

I want to be the cloud over the ocean

for a moment of peace and serenity

a laugh, a hug, a moment of bliss for me and only me.

But I've grown and I understand who I am

and that I'm not the cloud over the ocean and I'm not ever going to be.

SO who are you?