white light

unique is a color i don't believe in anymore.

the visible spectrum says

we're all the same more or less.

unique means anger from fear, past hurt,

joys are mostly silent.

i'm 19, which means i'm a martyr:

these thoughts come much later or not at all,

born into too many wars. light stays a spectrum, words define separation, colors define skin, define skin, define fire, define death. my death will have a color like a hospital bed, like a clean car crash. the other side of my world aches in gunfire.

i am a gay man, means i'm a color to you.

means i'm a martyr: your mind gives me the wrong name. light stays a spectrum. pride means a rainbow, a flag, separation, war.

always war.

i love, i love, i love, means i cry and cry and cry.

the nights are a true blue, the sun does not burn but sobs pure light into me and out of me. blood is the kindest red: always means life. white is a light of every color and no color and

unique is a word i do not believe in anymore.