Where Have You Been?

Where Have You Been?

Where have you been?

I have been searching for you all my life,

I have felt so alone

My path has been filled with pain and strife

Where have you been?

I have put on a good front pretending,

Putting on an act

like I am standing but really sinking,

Where have you been?

All I ever wanted was to be was strong,

But I am just weak

Just once can things go right and not go wrong

Where have you been?

I am really tired of feeling lost

I just want someone

To see me for me no matter the cost

Where are you now?

I have given all I have all my love,

And received nothing

I am someone you take advantage of

Where are you now?

You have left my heart in a pile of dust

But im now reborn

Rebuilding and healing me is a must

Where have I been?

I wont stop fighting till I reach the top

It will not be easy

It may take a while I will not give up

Where have I been?

I learned my lesson love comes from within

Not from others

I’m the only person I need to win

Here is where I am!

I have found out how valuable I am

I am not perfect

But with me it’s like hitting a grand slam

Here is where I am!

I finally found out what true love is

You can’t love others

Until you become your own happiness

Here is where I am!

My whole life is a beautiful painting

The things that brought pain

Made the most beautiful things amazing

Here is where I am!

My past is only part of my story

I am not ashamed

My scars have been turned into His glory

Behind the Poem:

When I sat down to write this poem, unlike any poem I have written, I knew the beginning, the middle and the end. I just didn't know the words that would be the poem. I wanted to write a poem that gave hope. A poem that showed a journey from despair and depression to victory and hope. Even though the poem isn't about my life and a particular event in my life, I can relate with what this person is going through. I could relate and touch the different feelings of the different stages of the journey. We all have journeys to travel, and we can relate with the journey. I wanted to give hope to those who might be at the first two stages and allow them to know there is a light at the end of the tunnel. That there is hope, when you feel hopeless. Like a lot of my poetry, when I read it I am amazed by what came out of me and early on in my poetry journey, this is one of the poems I am most proud of. I wrote this poem, so that each section could stand on its own as a mini poem. It is broken down in three sections. Thank you for support and I appreciate you. My hope is that we all can have and share hope, even when we cant see it.

This was the second poem I have ever written. If you would have told me back in high school, that one day I would write poetry. I would have laughed at you. I hated English and it was my worst subject. Sometimes I even surprise myself. I found poetry because of Covid-19. Sometimes the worst things send us on the greatest journeys.