What?
You are my best friend. Over the course of our friendship, however.... You told me you felt more for me several times, even though you knew I was in a relationship. Back then, you had no idea the shitty relationship I was in but you still came onto me. I could've been in a wonderful relationship for all you know(and this would have caused issues in my current situation )... Though I wasn't... But you told me you liked me more than friends.
I had to decline your advances to be loyal to the person I was with. Even though now you know the truth of our relationship and the horrible abuse I endured, I was trying to not hurt you either... Though I felt the same way for you I could not respond to you the way I wanted. How is one
Simple poem
Harassment?
I am sorry that this poem gave you such a visceral reaction. It seems you no longer feel anything for me in that way, but don't you make me think I am crazy... You did tell me at least twice and implied more than once that you liked me more than a friend when we talked. You wrote another poem since that delved into your “guilt” of this apparent love and yellow line... I don't understand any of this. I truly feel like we had and have something more. You made me think we did for months. Starting with Lemon Balm to your admission of liking me.
I was already head over heels in love with you but I valued your friendship much more. I still do. Very much.
And the fact that my gender dysphoria makes it somehow more of a harsh call?
That hurts a lot. I am struggling so bad with that and it hurts to think that if I was a male you'd think less of me.
I have literally done anything and everything to keep in contact with you. I have tried harder than I tried with anyone to show how much I care and love you. I would never want to lose you. Even when I was threatened to never speak to you I disobeyed because I felt you mattered and I cared for you that much.
I can't lose you. You know this too, and you know how devastated I would be if you stopped talking to me.
I never stop thinking of you and how much you have helped me see how I can change my life for the better and get rid of toxic people.
What is this? Why?
Seriously???!
Despite this... I still care about you and love you very much. You are still my best friend.
If you really want us to end, don't respond.
I'll always love you.
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Comments (8)
Heartwrenching. Very raw and real. Sending many hearts. I do hope you have some closure with this person. Sending many hearts ♥️
Gosh this was a stab in my heart. It was just so painful and devastating. I'm so sorry if this is what's really going on with you Merly. I hope things get better soon 🥺❤️
And thus, the lemon balm. I've been offline for the better part of four days & so am reading this backwards.
Melancholy & heartbreaking!!!♥️♥️💕
Real feels! Melissa. 🥲
While this story touches many a tender, sore spot in many a hurting heart…, it is at it’s center, about a toxic person. A person who tried to take advantage of you despite you being in a relationship. Someone who then turned on you out of the blue. It is touching, poignant, heartfelt. It is also a story about a person who needs to build up their own esteem. Regardless, this will touch and strike a chord with many… So, job well done.
Heart breaking and so well written💙Anneliese
Sweetly written 📝 💖😉