Toxic me.

I know I’m still broken.

I’ll never trust that you’ll stay

So I’m leaving the same day I know your heart is absent.

I love when when you loved me from a distance.

I loved knowing when you never knew the real me

I’m all these broken pieces. From wounds I never healed from.

I like that you’re independent. I know you’ll never need me.

I’ve been figuring out for so long, I’m proud to say I’m strong. I get embarrassed when I look needy.

I never meant to hurt you. I really have fallen in love.

I took the time to learn you. I speak only from my heart.

My capacity to love is all I have so that’s all I show.

How could you love me for me.

When I’m done I mean it.

How could you love me when our babies will have my depression and this anxiety is a bully.

I laugh to keep from crying. I smile as much as much as I be hurting.

I recognized your pain. I was drawn to you because mine felt the same.

Sometimes I think I’m the only one who’ll ever truly need me.

My surface is still but deep down I’m hurting.