To what extent

What does happiness look like

Sunflower and peace

What does it feel like

Dream home

What does it taste like

Dinner with a complete family

Not most

When I lay down every night on this hard tile

I dream of what happiness teate like

I, wide awake, I Dream, but when I sleep I forget, to lost to feel so lost in life

I wish this dream I dreamt could follow me to my sleep so I can smile even when I’m lost.

I wish for a better life

But to what extent

I fear I’m losing

I can’t see, cannot be grateful for when I have but I look Further to what I don’t.

What if I get them would I want more? would I cherish the journey and the wins or would I look for more and call it happiness

To what extent I ask myself.

I want to be free.

Run in a planet of sunflowers with no worries on earth.

I wanna eat steak but I eat meat so what is the difference maybe the plate.

And I want that.

Less I forget.

What do I really want?

I want recognition.

I want high.

Higher than I’ve been.

I want to do something and get recognized for it.

I want a change.

Positively

I want it all.

Does that make me greedy

I don’t care

But

How?

How do I get there.

My mind is becoming a prison.

Tempting me to go far but I don’t know how

What should I type, where should I look, what article should I read, how many emails should I write.

It doesn’t matter I still don’t get.

But I hope it’s soon for my mind is becoming a terrible place.

#VocalNPM