To Be Angry

I have realized over time unfulfilled

that I have spent too much unrequited

energy trying to not be angry,

trying hard not to carry resentment.

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Forgiveness is not mine to offer -

I am not your God – nor your Judas -

but I will let go; first, I must absorb

the emotions I’ve worked long to deflect.

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As a Mother, a lover, a wife and

a woman, I choose to heal, to feel

in order to not taint the ones I love,

they deserve better than my damages.

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Your deceitful discomfort avoided

is not worth my numbness any longer.

I refuse to be afraid or ashamed

of my powerful anger anymore.

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So I say to myself in empathy -

“You have every right to be angry,

but it is your responsibility

to not get stuck there. Accept it. Love it.”

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What does it mean to be angry?

Feel it, embrace it, make yourself whole -

then let it go. Love is anger set free.