Thoughts of you

Most days I might try to avoid my thoughts so not to cry.

But every single day that passes I wake up and go to sleep thinking of you.

I wonder what you're feeling and what’s going on with you.

How is it living life without us together?

Are you going crazy with worry and fear like I do?

What new things have you learned?

How are you being treated?

Do you have the time to dance in the rain?

Do you get to feel the sunlight on your face?

So many things are left unknown.

Not because of my doing, definitely not be a cause of you.

But please let's not feel defeated, or at least I keep telling myself.

At this time, I can't answer many of your questions let alone my own.

I just don't know how or why this had to happen.

Why can't I watch you grow?

Why can't I protect you from the harsh world?

But I can tell you this...

I love you. I love you everything about you, unconditionaly.

No matter the time or distance - I am here

Just remember I did the best I could, just remember me if you can.

And Its you, my daughter, that is in my heart whose smile I miss.

Now I will always be honest with you, dont hesitate to ask….

But There are a few things you ought to know

I have and will always do right by you, you deserve the best.

I have and will always fight for you, I’m on your side.

But as I sit here thinking of you, tears fill my eyes.

Because I know that Holding you is so overdue.

I’m sure you have heard so many things that have been said.

I know how rumors fly.

I just hope that you Hold on to my love and our good memories.

Always Stand tall, hold your head high and be strong

And Remember that I will always love you

And that I am always thinking of you