thick slim girl

thick slim girl

Under this sky blue

I was born melanin brown

And under this sky blue

Experiences were born too where I did not recognize my crown

I tried to redefine myself every day every second

I wanted to find ways to make my melanin brown body feel more like a blessing

If someone told me what you want to do, be, no rules, no pressure,

i would have wanted to be a melanin black thick slim model have a flat stomach so that when I sit down you would not see the creases in my stomach and that

I would not be hungry every two hours and I would actually feel confident when I take pictures in places like the top of a silver beaming tower

my friend tells me he sees questions in my face in my photos questions like why choose me and all of that below inside a photo

i kind of wonder how life would be like to be a mocha deep brown thick slim girl to not have to suck in this melanin brown belly before you take a picture and worry about all these belly swirls

i look at clothes and I do not even look at the price tags

i look at the date in the future I can possibly fit them and no need to hide these melanin brown flabs

i look at chiseled bones and picture what my bones in my face will look like when I chisel the fat away

i was a surgeon and my image is what I operated on everyday

how would I look like when I am

is almost like I suspended permission to live till I am a certain size

oh that but that was then that was before I met the Ashley grahams

and the proud melanin brown fupa queens my friend inundated me with different complexion of thick women,

women with their beautiful melanated brown fupa

not worrying if they look lean their melanin brown fupa oozing at the left and side of them and they carried it like gold

mama, they carried it like yellow gold was oozing out,

they looked like a melanin brown queen with no lick of a doubt

i stared in awe and I stared at my own melanin brown fluff started calling myself a fluffy bunny

i started looking at outfits and told myself honey

this fluff will pinch and glide in these different color fabrics

i asked myself not can I fit in this but can it handle all of this, uuumph and gluumph and melanin magic

i ask it am I too fabulous for you, can you hold all this black girl vibrancy too

i look at my melanin brown body that carries my breath throughout my day

has released tears and still found energy to get up every single day and slay and function,

how dare I look at it as anything but magic deserved to be on display

My caramel brown body is a melanin shade and a body that is powerful

This thick melanin brown body is still loving and beautiful

And I will love it everyday still