The Souvenir Soap

Recent losses all around triggered me into extreme wondering

I confess I had wondered a lot since then, sometimes I wondered within bounds,

sometimes I went beyond

You left me recently in that blue room, it was sudden, I was isolated.

So was my relationship with you.

Sudden like a fire, isolated, slow torture,

It was an amazing conflict of relationship.

Unhurriedly it became everything.

I dreamt of escaping this dance every day, for peace, for quiet.

But enjoyed the moments of intimacy, the smell, the chemical bond, the after fights

For too long I swayed confusedly, doped in love-web

I know I had waited too long in this flow and ebb.

I confess I had wondered a lot since then, sometimes I wondered within bounds,

sometimes I wondered cynically, sometimes I wondered unethically

That night two tea Sat on the table waiting for you, the movie ran without you.

The couch witnessed us for one last time, Then You left the house to be unbound as if you were ever bound.

The doctors and the protocols couldn't keep you in too.

I wonder in wonder, I couldn't even wander more

How I grieved and you had that last laugh once more.

your scent lingers on my skin and wakes me up in the middle of the night.

As John Lennon said Love is a promise, love is a souvenir, once given never forgotten, never let it disappear.

I keep your Soap as a souvenir, as a souvenir of love and pain.