The Narcissist Won

A fake man, a fake ring and a fake promise walk into a bar,

And I let them in because I know it won’t get very far.

We’ve all been here, together before. The same song, dance, and drinks.

We won’t admit that pain had become both of our kinks.

You inflict it, and I welcome it like rain in a drought.

Why cant' you admit it? We know it's your fault, without a doubt.

A fresh start and new chance at happiness is scarier than a familiar hell.

You’ve mastered manipulation & practiced your lies, and I’m not a hard sell.

The "better version" of me that you came in and stole,

would disapprove of me eating out of an empty bowl.

She's gone because you scared her out of my soul.

And I’m barely ashamed to admit that getting her back isn’t my goal.

Attention seeking turned into suicidal tendencies and healing turned into self-destruct.

So, I’m here again... for the highs and lows, the lust and pain, the money and to fuck.

And even though I’m choosing the pain, I’ll complain that it is just my luck.

It’s easy to stop worrying about the future when it doesn’t exist,

And if all goes to plan, the disappointment will wait until I don’t resist.

“How could you stay when he broke your heart?”

Because nobody else will buy a shattered piece of art.

“He’ll just hurt you again.”

I know, I’m counting on it. I’ll be ready by then.

“You deserve better.”

Probably, but every fight leads to pain that just makes me wetter.

Because I’m ready to get off, get ripped to shreds and get gone.

Preferably before he sees that I’m completely withdrawn.

I know that I could never count on him, but I know he’ll get me there,

By master manipulation and every thought out lie that he cares.

He’s always smirked and looked at me as obliterative,

And I agree baby, I’ve just always been more innovative.

This is me destroying it all, taking the razor out of self-harm.

I haven’t stopped, you just won’t be able to see it on my arm.

We always knew to meet each other at the altar,

and we did, but instead of vows.. your telling everyone how you lost her.