The Moment Before Infinity

In the moment before disaster, that last second of peace before everything erupted into volcanic ash of chaos and confusion. The naive and vulnerable state of that last second of normalcy will be forever imbedded in your mind as a question of eternity. Why did I do this? What could I have done different to change it? The last second of normalcy is both envied and repulsed in a conundrum of the heart that the brain strains to explain. Wishing to go back to a time of seemingly inconsequential vulnerability while simultaneously resenting your past self for not being able to arrest the subsequent chain of action and reactions before it altered all foreseeable remaining existence. The split second prior to the tragedy’s entrance into existence, is forever to be mourned and recounted as the last moment of peaceful innocence, oblivious to the approaching vicissitude that will transform current life forever.