The Look Of Love

Do I love him?

I Do

If it wasn't true I would have left him a long time ago

Does he treat you right?

Sometimes I ask this question, and I say no,

But then he turns around and does something that makes me

Feel conflicted

Lets just change the subject,

Why did you post a picture of a bottle with a ship in it?

Let me tell you what I feel within side of me

As I sit on the beach,

I see this ship,

It is my dream

It is my wish

It is something that I know in my heart that

I am meant to have

that I am meant to do

But the only thing is

I have tried everything to get to it

I have tried to paddle to it

But every time

I have almost drowned with it

I have tried to surf to it

I even thought "Hey why not try to swim to it"

But every time, I can not lie

I almost drown with it

So I wait on this ground

With my legs cross Indian style

Waiting for God to tell me this is it

I guess I wait for him to say

Why do you keep going that way?

I have a much much faster way

Why do you drown? Why do you swim?

Why try to boat across when you know that you cannot get to it?

So I wait,

Not with a smile

Not confident

Not knowing just what God is telling me to do with it

So I sit

Indian Style

Until he tells me what to do with it

So again what is this picture you sent?

It's me telling you,

Yes I love him, yes I want this

But everytime I try to get to him I drown

So why put yourself through this?

Because as much as I have tried to do it myself

As much as I have thought about it

The one thing I have not tried yet

And what is that?

God

Giving it to God

And let him handle it

Something like love is in his department

Me, I am fed up with it

But I can't seem to let go of it

So here I sit

Indian Style

Waiting on God to help me with it

What is it?

The map,

The directions to it

But What is it?

The ship that carries love

That would sail across oceans

That would never end

Have you seen the pictures of cruise ships?

The sun glistening on the water

People pay big money for it

So here I sit

Waiting for it

Sitting Indian Style

Until God tells me how to get on it

Instead of me drowning over it

Love should not be this hard! But then again if God guides you to the one

Then you just have to sit Indian Style until it happens and then you won't drown!