The Letter I Should Have Sent

Hey... yeah, yeah you... I have something to say to you! All of this outside noise that messes up your head... all lies! Everything the gray matter between your ears is nothing but lies! I feel like a few of you may have already known this and yet, here we are again!

Let me tell you a secret... None of us know what we are doing in this thing called life!

Freaking none of us!

So, please give me a moment to clear my head to write.

Dear Me:

Of all the letters you have written with tears streaming down your face... this is the one you should have sent.

For so many years you loathed yourself... You despised everything about you that defined you!

Why? For years, you have let the thoughts of others direct how you feel. Always focused on the negatives or whys you could have been better

For most this would be referred to as ACCOUNTABILITY

To me, this was the deepest, darkest... of all my misery & tears! I am that girl that wears her heart on her sleeve. I am the hopeless romantic that still dreams of a prince on a white stallion. Yet, I am wise enough to know what is real and what is not.

I think!

What I do know is that there is more to life than the way I have been living. It isn't something I can really refer to as living. I have been maintaining. There was a point in my world that I felt the turn. I actually felt the world tilt. I no longer loathed myself. I no longer wanted to die! I wanted to be healthy, happy and not have to continually question the why's!

My state of peace was all I wanted to keep pushing for. It was what I always sought and suddenly it was in my face & I didn't care how or why!

This all should sound good... and yet, it has been another tough day where you are on the edge of smiling or breaking down in the form of crying and not certain if you will be able to stop.

Yes, girl you got this... let your life pop!!!!