The End I Brought

When you leave

I can't breathe

When you're not with me

I want to bleed

Can't you forgive me

I can never be mad at you forever

I adore you

I'll wait for you

The less I have you the more I need you

Even if you don't remember

The love we wanted to last forever

Even when you have eyes for another

I can't think of anyone better

I know I'm not your lover

But I hope you remember

Because I always will

I'll never forget what I ran from

If only you could feel the drum in my chest

Beat every sec when I think of what I left

Slow hard beats

It takes everything just to keep my heart pumping

But it won't stop loving even if it keeps hurting

I look into the mirror and reflect

I see my own eyes

I can't stand their sight

I want to gouge them out

I don't deserve to have these eyes

Even when they're gone I can still see you perfectly in my mind

Your sad pretty eyes that shine

Your skin so fine

Your smile so define

It's so real I can feel your heart beating against mine

In my mind is the closest I'll get to be to you

But it'll never be enough

I'll never get to see the way you look at me when I'm talking to you

I'll never get to hear you laugh when I joke around

I'll never get to feel your warmth when I hold you

I'll never get to know you the way I wanted to

My biggest regret is that you'll never know how much I loved you

You'll never see my words

You'll never hear my words

But that's probably for the better

Because this is the most selfish thing I've ever written

It is full of flaws

There's a part of me that doesn't miss what I left behind

Maybe we never loved each other

We just fell in love with the thought of what we could be

Straining souls looking for hope

Despite being too far from saving

Like a dying plant trying to reach the sunlight trapped beneath all the weeds.

Wrapped in thorns we held on to each other for as long as we could

Till one of us couldn't take the bleeding anymore

Till one of us couldn't stand to see the other bleed anymore.

Knowing together we wouldn't be able to reach the sunlight

So one of us let go

So the other could grow.