Thank u

I’m done with thank you’s

I’m done with praising your esteem because

today you decided to be kind

I’m done with elevating you

just for a seat at your table

I’m done with the esteem boost

I gave you

I’m done with needing to prove myself

I’m done with the pillar I was for you

just to stand on my back and say it isn’t high enough

I’m done with boosting your income

but still needing to remind you I am human too

I’m done with being part of your circle jerk

because your friends seem so sincere

I’m done with supplying your validation

and hoping for you to return the favor

I’m done with viewing you as the wounded pop star

who could have been so much if I had just extended a little more

I’m done with being the reason for your failures

and keeping mine on myself

I’m done with putting my heart on the dotted line

and thinking I should be working harder

I’m done with working for affection

I’m done spit shining my thank you

just for it to be questioned again and again

I’m done helping you turn a blind eye

to the real fuckery you’ve dumped on my life

I’m done with insincerity

I’m done with being the first to reach out

I’m done with being the last person you’d waste your energy on