Song/poem

Verse 1

It might take awhile before I can authentically smile

But I assure you ima run the mile to keep up with ice skate freestyle

Goal this week is to rest my trials and to lay down like tiles

Goal this year is to make footage and rhymes in piles

The point of rhymes is to ignite positivity in the mind

I don't got to explain my self but I thought I try

I'm tryna to find my old heart a mine like a do wap vibe

Intertwined in my mental garden in order for my soul to shine

The point of footage is to heal the relationship I got with camera

Started with Sony then Nokia and cannon with a Mac Sierra

Now I don't know what brand I have I just know I wana see ya

And you so far only way we can be is through a lense not glamorous

I go to work cut hair at sportclips haircuts and thats my life

I come home to my spirituality and follows the energetic fights

They battle within me and I can wait for my ascension to take flight

Back down to earth bc my ego is keeping me from the light

Verse 2

Anytime i be on the microphone im out of my comfort zone

Just like when I talk to people I'm nervouse and want to run home

But the guys tht come in help me relax and there's no need to go

Talkin to men is much easier to talkin to women because my eyes roam

All day the beat be in my head thinking of ways to express

But where to I start with all this stress building up in my chest

4 ways I can get to my destiny but not if I live like a mess

Gotta get dressed wake up do you thang and think less

My friends be my rock when I'm week so I'm not crying on knees

They see the real chelsea so I no longer need approval from my family

1 and a half years medicated and sober is my chance to finally breath

This is my time to heal and grow my soul

And it starts wit 5 seeds

Trusting you gut is a must with the love you got to give to you

Navigated compass so spirit knows which way to go to

Loyal to your wisdom and all the energy passing through

Together we come together to improve the worlds news

Hook

Me and my crew is a select few but we coming like fire

Light the match up to spark just the thing to complete desires

Workin on our energies to align and sync up like a gospel chrior

Honest to ourselves and eachother to weed out the liers

On this earth liven the 3d experience with alot of rock and roll

Travel to the 5d in galaxies seriously with the art of soul

Feel what realm you be living in but all a sudden ur old

Try and remember the memories to forever in your heart hold

My life is without color in living with PTSD

The vivid flashbacks haunts my dreams

The essence of summer dies in fall leaves

How can it be that I can't see the heart of green

They diagnose me with mental disabilities they didn't know what was wrong with me

There was an incident that was found on screen

I no longer claimed the name Chelsea

The root of my pain caused holes in my brain

Monotone spirit involves a moving train

I can't explain how fast it came but I quick got out the way

Denied suicide because I'm ashamed of being gay

Therapy had began and I would always stray

Off the pack back to the storm and the rain

I chose to do paid things to get paid

Because I was not confident in salons those days

I fought with myself for years and years

Masked how I felt with vodka and beer

Consistently consumed over the fears

Now I'm i found a team tht makes muddy waters clear

If found color has a vibration you can hear

If my eyes are to ever fail to see how beautiful I am

So I give those sounds my full blown ears

To feel the color in my body and stear my energetic land

All I see,feel and hear is

red blood on the warm rocks

Orange bed sheets with dirty socks

Yellow guts inside a dissected frog

Green eyes around the brows I pluck

Blue skies in a smile with love

Indigo smoke giving me hugs

And purple hearts sweeping out the rug

Then I take a look in the mirror and see I embody every color

How amazing it is how we each are a rainbow

Not many are aware to claim though

So I swallow my pride and wink my eye

I have the will to live I no longer want to die.