It's happened so many times before that it should just be a blip on my radar but it happened. Again.
S-E-X-U-A-L A-S-S-A-U-L-T
It's just a bunch of letters
but they pack a punch
they lay you flat out
Those words change you...
they change everything.
Here I am again
going through the motions...
trying to use what I learned in retreat
but each time I relive what happened
a hole opens and memories flood back in
I don't know if I can do it...
I'm struggling to breathe
I need to fight but I can't
He's too heavy, he's too strong
and I can't fight through it
all I can do is survive.
So I'm surviving.
I am alive.
I am drunk, going through the motions
trying to fight this demon on my own.
I know I have my sisters but this battle I must face on my own
because if I can't face this
then all is lost.
About the Creator
Roxy Wolf
Hello! My pen-name for this is Roxy Wolf. Not using my real name due to personal reasons. One day that may change. This is part of my journey to healing & learning to use my voice. I hope this helps others know they're not alone.
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