Self Discovery

My truth is strung out across distant memories.

I'm going back in time,

Collecting them like pieces to my puzzle.

I'm starting to see myself a little clearer now.

If only I could block the doubt...

I could truly be unstoppable.

Unbreakable.

Why must doubt and delusion

Cloud my judgement and sense of worth?

Why must I strategize and reflect

In order to move forward fearlessly?

I'm gathering my resources,

Searching for my power,

Rediscovering my inner strength.

I'm building myself up,

And knocking down what no longer fits.

I won't allow a narrative to control me that doesn't exist.

My life is happening here-

Right. Now.

And I'm spending my time

Floating through forgotten memories of

Time spent with people I have loved.

The truth is that I decide my worth.

I put a price tag on myself.

People may remind me of who I am,

But I am the only one who knows me.

If I discover my sense of self amongst others,

What about all this time I'm spending by myself?

I hope that all this reflection will help me

Put my past to rest,

So that I can finally trust each new moment.

Releasing my plans and projections,

I step abundantly into my future now.

I live instinctually moment to moment,

Trusting that everything will always work out.

Because I realize now that it always has.

I'm still here, right?