Seeking help

It is really hard to explain

what is running through my mind,

As it's not as simple or as plain

Because those words I have to find.

Do not always want to be found

or even at times spoken aloud,

Sometimes I feel as if I am bound

in a tight unbending shroud.

But at those times when my words will not flow

I put effort into making it work,

Even when they are clunky and slow

so that my demons will only lurk.

Speaking out loud can be hard

especially speaking from the heart,

which for me needs to be under guard

as so many times its been torn apart.

From traumas of the heart body and soul

over many long and hard years,

Sometimes I fear I will never again be whole

but this i have to hide from my peers.

For many of you do not know the true me

or all of what i have gone through,

this is to protect my shattered mind you see

but also all of you.

the last thing i want to say

in this poem that you'll read,

tonight or the next day

and it is a basic plead.

if you need help seek it out

but do not hide in fear,

or behind the bravado you sprout

for those who love you are always near.