Seasons change

Last night I dreamt we were together, a thousand nights and one forever. We were wearing silver lovers lost in the secrets of each other. Now, The sky has gone grey since you haven’t been around. We’re enemies, lovers not friends. I'm trying to be strong but I've been hanging by a thread. Colors don’t seem the same, not as bright and vivid as before. The sheets on my bed seem colder, there’s no warmth left there. Your memory follows me and I can't hide It hurts not being with you anymore. It's not as easy as out of sight out of mind It's not as easy as leaving it all behind In everything there's a string that's still tied. I lay in my bed and thoughts of you explode inside my head. I look over to the other side where there is a sunken shape and I see you there smiling and talking, moving over to kiss me. I still feel your light kiss on the back of my neck just like it was yesterday. My heart starts to hurt parts are gone and twisted and you’re the puzzle piece that fits and sews up the hole that’s left. You’re everywhere except right here. A tear slips down from my eye, it falls to the pillow, my mascara stains a spot on the white pillow case where your head once laid. Sometimes I think I still smell your scent on my sheets. I sink into the pain until it’s all gone. I close my eyes and it almost feels like you are here, I picture you holding me and we’re making love, we always did that so well. I wish that I could live my life and not look back A part of me will always be wherever you're at But it's hard to move on when you love somebody like that. So much has happened since the last time I saw you. I’m taking pictures again, I didn’t realize how much I missed it. I’m going out more, spending time with my friends. Im laughing and smiling again, I didn’t think I would after us. I’m starting to write, I am getting over that block that I had. I’m working out and taking care of my mind, body and soul and it’s showing. Im trying new foods, stuff I didn’t think I ever would try. I walk outside and feel the sun on my face and it’s warm I stop and take a deep breath it reminds me of your touch. Sometimes when I am out somewhere i hear someone in the distance call out and I turn my head cause they sound like you. I catch a scent and it reminds me of the time when you were with me. Everyone looks like you from a far off distance, I almost ran up to someone the other day but then I stopped. Been seeing someone new but I'm not over you yet It's strange not being with you anymore. Every time that I try to move on you’re with me Every day every night you're in everything. There's a piece of my heart that is still missing And the time ain't healing anything. Time move forward and The flowers are no longer in bloom, the leaves have fallen from the trees and it’s turned cold here. Seasons have come and gone. The summer, spring, to fall and snow shows me that there really is beauty in change. Cause baby you’re a gambler and I’m the ace of spades. We fight til the end, we never back down.