River of Darkness

My heart beats slower and slower each day. I'm burning, my veins are burning with the flow of pain that I feel. I'm used to nothing that feels better than this. I need someone to call me. I need someone to turn the light on. Why am I fighting for life when all I want is to disappear? Why do you hate me now? I'm on the wrong side of life and I keep coming back to the beginning. Where can I get off this ride? I just want to hide, I keep being lost deep inside this is not my life to play. I don't love myself and I don't need anybody else to love me. I'm feeling I'm alone, I'm screaming to you to please find me every day of my life. If my life is worth fighting for where is god to keep my head held high and don't keep my head down low? Hold me now when I need you the most don't let me down I want to rise like the river in your arms so don't let me drowned. I'm falling in the shadows, I'm tired of the battle. When the past runs to me, I live in the shadows of someone else, but part of me is here, sometimes I don't know what to say. I need to take a look around me to find something better each day. All I see is the dark around me. Light a match and start a fire inside me. I'm not learning anything from this. I guess I gotta learn how to let it go! I'm whispering with a glass of water in my hand, I'm falling and crashing breaking my glass on the floor. We're all just strangers in this world together, not knowing where we're going, or what we're doing. I am but one person standing on a rock floating in space.