Resistance to Speak

everyone says talking

makes it better

but I don't want to hear

their sugar coated lies

them justifying your actions

I don't want to fucking hear it

once I did try to talk about it

to one person

someone I called my best friend

they just said they were sorry

and never held the conversation

they saw the tears in my eyes

and never once did they give me a hug

or attempt comfort

so no

I don't want to speak about it

I don't want to talk about the devil himself

it's useless

if you won't help me through it

you told me it's okay to ask for help

even in little situations

like getting a tool

or for a ride somewhere

b u l l s h i t

if you can't even vent

then they're not worth asking for help

no one is

not if they're supposed to be

one of the closest people to you