Regrets

“I never want to see you again,” Spiteful words, etched, forever in my head.

7 little words, i wish i hadn’t said. Yes, those 7 little words will haunt me til im dead.

Renounce, refuse, reject. Tell me your regrets.

No, just tell me one, the one you cant forget.

one that leave you lying awake at night,

one that haunts your soul and leaves you paralyzed.

If you stay ill tell you mine,

I should have listened when you called..

Instead i let you fall, Knowingly pushing you away..

I’ll never forget that day.

I just wanted to protect my cub, shield her from the drugs.

In turn i lost lost my little brother.

I’ll never forget that day,

I’d give anything to hit replay..

Life is so short sometimes we forget to tell the ones we love, how much they mean to us

That’s something I’ll never get to do..

It eats at me inside to know thats how you died.

People say you know how much i love you and I’d give my soul just to hug you.

but what if you dont’ .. thats the thought that haunts me everynight,

A few months prior you told me you were lonely, thats all i can think about is you out in the cold dying alone in the street

A bullet in the heart.. irony at its best.

I’ll never forget that day.

theres so much i didn’t say. Like how much i really love you. I never meant to push you away.

I wanted you to be safe, but you we so set in your ways.

I should have answered all the times you called,

Instead i let you fall.

I hope you know it wasnt intentional, I knew your true potential.

I just wanted you to get clean and sober, to turn a new leaf over.

Now im the one who’s talking, what’s that saying about the apple and the tree.. the fall really isn’t as far as it seems

I’ll never forget that day, or those 7 words etched inside my brain

There’s a halloness in my chest an enteral pain within my soul. 4 years now have passed you would have been 23.

Life is shorter than we know, but im only 25 with an eternity to go.

I’ll never forget that day , the things i’ll never get to say..

Rest In Peace little brother, the river runs deep.

David Robert Smith

05.14.1998- 11.30.2017