Ramblings

Sometimes, ok more often than I like to admit,

I just want to crawl into your flesh and stay.

Make a home, feel safe and protected.

When I say “I crave you”, it doesn’t always mean sex.

The craving is a longing,

A need to feel something I can’t explain.

I am more than what your eyes see,

A soul in need.

Periodically my heart pings yours

Waiting for the reply.

Sometimes, maybe more,

I want to SCREAM out loud

Are you not getting my messages?

The ones that I believe somehow

you should know,

like a mind reader.

I breathe you,

I eat, sleep and dream you.

Always in the same book,

On the same page

Same paragraph

Not always the same sentence.

I want to borrow your eyes

Just for a day

So I can see what you see.

The smell of you surrounds me

Everyday…all day…even when

You are not near.

I ask if I am “too much”

You say “just enough”

But I want to be too much

Sometimes.

I want to be too much to handle

Too much to love

Too much happy

For so long I was never enough.

I want to be in every crack and crevice

Of your mind

I want you to lose sleep over me,

Once in a while.

I want you to love me

Within the heat and passion

Of a thousand suns.

My lips miss your lips

As soon as you walk away

A hunger like no other,

Starving but patient.

I am restless

And relentless

Just the thought of you

Emotional overload.

My heart ugly cries for you

My body searches for yours

In the darkness.

Our life

SCREAMS togetherness,

yet the separation is sometimes

hard to bear.

Together we burn like flames

A giant effigy to our love

Once a spark

Now a raging inferno

Engulfing each other.

To never be duplicated

Unwavering and strong

That once in a lifetime,

Us.

Always, G.