b r e a t h i n g b r e a t h i n g b r e a t h i n g b r e a t h i n g
air that must have been stuck in my chest for days
dislodged shrapnel from too many battles
like... going to the shop
or eating.
I think my backbone is melting
from the decompression
of my innards being swept away in tides
eroding the scaffolding that the air kept in place
... am i melting?
could this be the end of what i know to be me?
dissolution of the abstract that is Caroline Jane
a pain in the arse with a smile
that runsandrunsandrunsandruns for mile after mile after mile
then dies
to repeat it all again
insane
should be my middle name
isn't it my time now, anyway?
is there such a thing in a world where gifts make it turn?
i have such a lot to learn
at my age
schmooz or you lose, isn't that how the song goes?
i have no clue how to dance to that tune
i barely know the words
i just work hard and hope for the best
but hard work can kill a dream as well as make it
you can't fake it
or mask it
i no longer try
do or die
... likely die
I am dissolving after all
Hello.
Welcome to my puddle on the floor.
About the Creator
Caroline Jane
CJ lost the plot a long time ago. Now, she writes to explore where all paths lead, collecting crumbs of perspective as her pen travels. One day, she may have enough for a cake, which will, no doubt, be fruity.
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beautiful and well executed
Your writing makes me speechless. You have a way with writing about the deepest darkest parts of our minds and the fears that comes with it. Very well executed.
You know though, water can take many shapes...
Nice poem!
WOW I love the rhythm also I love your bio!
Back to say congratulations for your leaderboard placement
Congrats on second place..
Caroline congrats on second place for most popular story this week!! ✨
Back to say congratulations on making this week's leaderboard's second place for Most Popular Story. Well done!
What an amazing journey through anxiousness that began as I read the title. Congratulations on the top story.
Thank you for sharing your gift with the world. Your poem is a reminder that we are not alone in our struggles, and that even in the darkest moments, there is beauty to be found. Keep writing, and know that your words are making a difference.
That last line is so good. It just solidified the entire piece Congratulation on TS
Nail it , Congratulations on top story oh masterpoet
Forget stream - that was a torrent! Very well done 👏 💗
Masterful writing Caroline! Congrats on your TOP STORY!
Back to say congratulations on your Top Story! 🎉💖🎊🎉💖🎊
This was deep and vivid and brilliant! Congrats on a very well deserved TS! 🥳
Oh, I love this so much! That last line ❤️ Amazing job, Caroline!
The rhythm and style of this drew me through so effortlessly. Amazing poem! Congrats on the Top Story!
Back to say congrats on Top Story, Caroline!! 🎉
Those last three lines though! And the entire piece 🫰🫰🫰
Congratulations Caroline!
I sensed your problem immediately. Stop being domesticated and become FERAL! It's more fun and every day you will have a reason to plan for the next day.
Cj.in.Uk; aka, Ms. 'Insane' - Opposite Pond~Puddler: You're leaking all the way over here..! Don't we all Fake-Schmooze till we lose. Jk.in.l.a.
Boom. Well done Ms! Congrats on Top Story!