It's Always Been You

When we were together I was hidden,

My true self was sheltered,

My voice was muted, not by choice, but by choosing to ignore who I was.

I was Young,

I was Stupid,

I was trying to be someone I'm not,

Trying to be someone you'd like,

Trying to be someone you thought...

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It doesn't matter, does it?

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It's over.

Long gone, lost and forgotten,

Yet looking back,

When I remember myself in those moments...

Those moments...

Where I reached beyond the curtain,

Peaked from behind the mask,

Showed my true colours,

Where my mind truly relaxed,

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You were there

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Somehow you show up in every memory,

Like you were the key that unlocks the door,

Like being with you set me free.

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It wasn't every time I was with you

Yet, every time

I was with you

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I never hid myself from YOU,

I hid myself from EVERYBODY.

You were the only one who really saw me.

I was trying to be somebody you'd like,

But I didn't have to try,

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I was somebody you liked

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My fear of losing you only pushed you away,

But you didn't leave you stayed,

And that confused me because I thought you would leave me,

But maybe...

You thought you would lose me.

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Maybe it was love

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I'm starting to lose sleep,

Overthinking the thought of you,

I want to crawl back to you,

But I'm afraid.

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Afraid that you never knew me

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Because I never knew you,

I never took the time to see you, and hear you,

And let you know that I wanted you to be mine.

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I never knew you

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But when God asks me who I want,

Who I want to be with,

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I always choose you