Pain

The pain I felt was indescribable.

However, I no longer feel that amount of pain.

It was replaced with loneliness and a tinge of acceptance with regret.

the pain arises when you are around, but can be hidden now.

Before I was too high-strung and lacked control, but the me now is different.

I am no longer controlled by what you did to me.

I am learning to forget, because I will never forgive.

Forgiving would mean I have fully accepted what happened and sadly that isn't the case.

Forgiveness is not yet attainable. Neither is hopefulness. Civility however is.