Overflow

My body and mind grow old

Yet my heart has remained the same

Over years I’ve learned

Ways to conform and hide

Creating clever disguises

The real me survives

Some struggles are easier now

Others keep chronic, hold me captive

Normally I’m able to channel

Convert insecurity into work

Release the tightly grasped

Free my arms of their load

Satisfaction reward enough

A job well done; a drug

So I decided to venture further

Dangerously long into my deepest lake

How far do I dare to go

Knowing how to navigate

I perspire through gallons

Expertly in command

Awakened from sleepy concentration

Curious! My feet are wet with a chill

Rejuvenated into action

Quickly I stand off balance

Unsure if to row, or to bail

I don’t see holes in the boat

Aware trouble and panic could cause me to sink; to drown

But the water is calm and a breeze warms my face

I set to pour this water back

But realize this flowing is not from the lake

Gathering all I can

Coating my fingers and hands

Lifted from the bottom of the craft

It clings to my arms

And leaps off my elbows, escaping

Creating prismatic rainbows from harsh light

Smelling sweetly I recognize it’s quality

And I don’t want to waste it

Without thinking I pull it into my mouth

Drinking as much as I can

Nourishment! It quenches my thirst

Even more helps me see with clarity

Drunk and happy I let it care and comfort me

To return any into this lake would be a crime

My anxiety alleviated, warmed and relaxed

I remember where I am

But still I can’t see the futures

Distant music Tells me to move on

A smile on my face for the overflow that happily dances in my boat

Forever inside me