One Sided Love

Am I crazy or just going mad?

I maybe lazy but that’s just how I am

My flaws are so many and I am so few compared to those who are more and I’m made number two

How do I have you see I may have flaws but they are only temporary

May not be tomorrow or next week nevertheless I will defeat them

Why could you never love me as much as I had loved you

You could say it isn’t fair but I can’t remember ever feeling anything past despair

Why did you always just sit and stare at that god damn phone I was literally right there

Begging and longing for your attention, guess I wasn’t worth as much as anyone who could mention even just a slightly better proposition

I made you my world and thought I could be yours, I’m just not what you wanted that was for sure

The crushing agony of loving a person so whole heartedly without any return of fervor is the feeling of stricken tragedy like a thunderbolt straight to the heart

I can only imagine dying is just as painful as having to live with the idea that me as a person was never enough