My Anxiety

Shake, shiver, quake

This is how anxiety takes and makes you feel useless, out of place

I need to move more quickly and get everything done

Go to stand up but the wind gets knocked out of my lungs

My mind flies to the darkest places it can find and then it hides

Why can I never seem to breathe or get full breaths of clean fresh air

My cage, anxiety, is invisible but so hard to bare it feels impossible to transcend

I wish I could show others who don’t comprehend that even though, yes this place is so to say make believe, it’s oh so real for me

Starting to climb the ladder towards self demise, I want to pull out my hair and scream all while I cry, but I just stop and stare at the bareness of my walls it feels surreal and serene

Now it’s all of the sudden I can’t breathe feels like I’m drowning in my own misery

I feel glee, like it was just that easy, all by spending some time with friends laughing truly and forgetting what prison I've barred myself with

Where have I been all this time? Have I really been that stuck in the depths of my crowded dark mind that enjoying anything seems like an outright lie

The flooding and flowing emotions I feel on a daily basis are slow moving but then become volcanic eruptions burning my eyes and constricting my throat

I try to run away and hide, why? I know it’s not real, the self made doom I let loom inside of me

All of these things are known all too well by anyone who’s been living in a self made hell

Thank your lucky stars if anxiety doesn’t harm how you function or how you live your life, it’s not anything I’d ever wish upon anyone.