On days like today

On days like today

My mind is filled with

Insecurity and doubt

On days like today

My mind crumbles into

A billion little pieces

All the while taking my body with it

Notice how I didn’t say

“Million”?

Because every time I think

I couldn’t break anymore

The event continues to unfold

Like a fragile fault line during an

Earthquake..or a

Ripple of water

Turning into a tsunami

On days like today

I sit and cry myself to sleep

Wondering why no one understands

Wondering why I can’t help

Them understand.

On days like today

The slightest inconvenience

Will set me off.

On days like today

My heart is heavy

And my mind is weak

On days like today

Anxiety and depression

Fight to win

Fight to get me to go to sleep

And never wake up.

On days like today

I can’t control my thoughts

As they become overwhelming

And I become succumbed

In the darkness that follows

But on days like today

I smile

I breathe

I live

I love

I laugh

I keep going.