Nothing Is Forever

When you have to let go, it really seems to sink in the reality of life isn't forever. As I have said many times before; Remember the Past, Create the Future, Love Always, Nothing's Forever. I started reciting this to myself years ago when my love began to pass on from this life.

She was five pounds three ounces, a head full of strawberry blonde hair, ten little fingers and ten little toes with a button nose. Purple, cold and gone to a better place.

Nothing's Forever.

Full of life stories from years of hardships, pain, love, and laughter. With crows feet on the corners of her eyes and lines that shaped around her smile. She seemed to never age, even with the age of time written all over her face. Silver locks of hair that fell in her face. A twinkle in her eye faded that day.

Nothing’s Forever.

Memories fading, but not forgotten. Tales of rebellious acts and love that would never last. Stories of her years teaching young minds and encouraging the straggling souls. She kept one foot on solid ground and the other traveling unknown roads. Her last adventure would be heaven bound.

Nothing’s Forever.

Full of life and wonder. Eyes that twinkle like the stars in a dark, clear night sky. Laughter, music, dance. Your light never seemed to dim. You were far too young for such tragedy but, a hug and kiss and a sweet ‘I Love You!’, ‘I'll see you later’. Left me with a gaping wound that I'll always pounder.

Nothing's Forever.

My First Love. My heart and soul. Wisdom and guidance, forgiveness and unconditional love. You taught me more than anyone, but I still have a lot to learn. I'm not ready, I still need you. Papa don't go! Please Stay! This is all just a nightmare.

Nothing’s Forever.

Fishing, hunting, and farming, we did it all. Raising cows and chasing chickens, till the sun went down. Daily life is so bland here, but I know there's gotta be a lake there, take Papa along to fish, I'll be there soon.

Nothing’s Forever.

Momma, my heart's broken, the tears keep falling. Where are you? I need you now. How do I do the things I've yet to learn? How do I navigate this life? What's the next chapter in the story book? Momma? Can you hear me? I'm calling out, I need you… Give Papa and Pappy a hug and a kiss for me.

Nothing’s Forever.

Grandpa, you always told me, one day I would have to take the wheel. Don't be scared, I know you can do it, you would remind me. What I didn't know is that it would be so soon, I'm not ready! I’m not scared.

Nothing’s Forever.

Eight times over, and it never gets any easier. The dark cloud just seems to get heavier. I remember the past, maybe a bit too much or maybe not enough. I really can’t say for sure. Likewise, I always love, even knowing that Nothing’s Forever. Furthermore, I lack in creating the future as I am stuck in the dark trying to reach the light.

Nothing’s Forever.