No More.

Someone please

Anyone help me please

I know there is no god

If there is

Why did he do this to me

Why am I being punished

Why does my existence hurt so fucking much

I can barely hide it anymore

I'm losing words to symbolize this anguish

The pain is so raw and unfiltered I just cant

I can't

I cant

I can't

I cant

I can't

I can't

I can't

I can't

For the love of God I fucking can't anymore

Please

I want it to end

It hurts so much

I cant

I cant

I cry

I bleed

I scream

I breathe

I try

No changes

There's no escaping

God gives me hope so I can lose it all again and again and again

Why do I feel this way

I don't understand

Im told im too quiet

Im too loud

Im too much

But nothing I do feels enough

I cling so desperately to every little thing that I have

But nothing wants to be held by me

Because I dont know how to properly hold onto anything

I don't know how to love

No matter how much I try

Its never right

Why does it hurt so much

I'm not strong enough for this

I dont want to keep going

Someone

Please tell me

It's okay

To leave

Please just tell me

That I can go

And you won't hate me

Tell me you'll be happy for me

That I was able to find peace

Please

Tell me its okay

To be free

To give up

To be weak

Tell me you hate me

Tell me you don't want to love me

Tell me you dont want my love

So I can let go

So I can die alone

Without having to scream

Why do I feel so alone

So I can just know

Because the tears dont stop coming

No nose wont stop running

I cant see

I cant breathe

I wheeze

As I grab my chest and squeeze

Thinking how it could be so easy

How I would be doing myself a favor

I'm a stain in this earth

My existence only taints the world

There is nothing beautiful about me

There is nothing about me worth to keep living.

I can feel the clock ticking

I think my time is almost up

I love you all

This life is truly worth living

There's so many reasons to stay

There's so many things worth experiencing

Learn to cherish the pain and understand its part of being human. Through perseverance is how you grow.

You will find love

You will experience so many good memories

Everything will be okay

I believe it's worth it to not give up.

It all just wasn't meant for me.

I wasn't meant to stay here long