Never

You’re tired of fight with me,

Then stop.

You’re tired of arguing with me?

Then stop.

Because I am tired too.

I am tired of hiding for you,

Of changing for you

Of accepting the things that I know are wrong from you

To make you feel...comfortable.

I’m tired of everyone else being the problem

When the common factor is you.

And don’t get me wrong,

I should have your back more,

I should be kinder

And nicer

And all around better but

I have been.

I was all of those things,

And was proud.

And I loved you,

And I smiled,

And I tried,

And I smiled,

And I worked,

And I smiled,

and it meant nothing

You were willing to leave me at my best you were willing to leave me at my worst

You were willing and able to show me and tell me endlessly

That I mean less to you,

than most things.

I mean less to you than everything

And now I don’t care because,

Im not in love you

I don’t want to be with you

I don’t want to be in this

And every time I tell you these words you brush them aside like I don’t mean it.

I mean it

because love

shouldn’t feel like this.

It shouldn’t hurt like this

It shouldn’t make me question reality

Because it doesn’t fit into the lie you are presenting.

It shouldn’t be you or me

My happiness or yours

And you should see and understand that we are a team

Not two countries on either side of the war

And alliances don’t take away from you

But

You don’t see that

You assume I no long have your back

Even though I fight for you

And defend you

Even when you are wrong

And hurtful

Even when you are selfish

And yes you are....selfish

And that’s not love

Not marriage

No

That is loss and sacrifice

Which gives creates more loss

More sacrifice

And soon all that’s left is

Nothing.