My Story Behind Closed Doors [Part 3]

How could I let 2 years be a waste of time?

I realized that I only stayed because of all the sacrifices of mine,

I was trying to keep something that was never alive.

I need to find out who I am inside.

I want to change my life, I shouldn't have been relying on a knife.

No more, hiding behind closed doors, the truth will be known I assure.

All I ask is for something real and stable, not someone who would do nothing but label.

Instead of blaming it all on me, how about he just take some responsibilty?

But you see, that won't happen if there is lack of maturity.

Which is why staying in that situation was no longer a possibilty.

Many wanted to go out with me, but that wasn't my priority.

I'm still working at school and trying to raise money on GoFundMe.

Sometimes you have to let go, especially if you're the only one trying, it's how you grow.

They do not want to listen, but you warn them, in the end you'll be the one who they're missing.

You have similar birthdates, you believe that it is fate, but you're really just falling for the bait.

So the abuse begins, you decide to stay and wait,

hoping it will change, but it never does and it's already too late.

The damage was already done, the respect for your self is already gone.

Full commitment to something that ended up only being torment.

It then continues to haunt you at night,

and you pray for someone to show you the light.

I'm a National American Miss, I don't need to be dealing with this.

So who was he to belittle my dreams?

I'm just going to enjoy life with friends & family.

My future is in my sight, being healthy will be a hard fight,

but I believe that I will be alright.

For months I have sat tight, and as I am about to take flight.

Preparing for that one day to be with, Mr. Right.