My Intentions

When I dream of you

You sing to me goodbye

And when I remember you

I see tears in your eyes

I love you dearly, darling

I wonder when you’ll see

It’s not you who is poison

It was always, always me

I call out to you in life

But I remember I don’t deserve you

So I shut up as quick as I spoke

Secretly hoping you call back to me, too

I know I’ve fucked up

And I know I love you more than life

I know I shattered your world

And yet I still wish to be your knight

I ask, “How do I become

What you deserve?”

You say, “Just be yourself.”

So I ran away.

Because I don’t know the way

To who I am to me

It was so much easier

Becoming the image of he

So, please believe me

I know I’ve disappointed

Please don’t give up

Because I aim to come and right it.