My Brother’s Olive Tree

If I were to ever have a daughter but first birthed a son

I would hope he’s nothing like you

, look what you’ve done

I understand we are born in to these ideals as siblings

The youngest is babied

The middle is looked-over

The eldest is supposed to be a role model

We did not ask for it, but we’re given it none-the less

Even more so, you’re the big brother so you’re prone to protect

I do see it in you

Just not for me

Our baby brother deserves all the Grace in the world

But you never wanted me

I can now feel that hate

Something this major I can’t just look-away

Our late mother wanted just one thing from us

And that was for us to stick together

Then you get caught in a lie and

Oh no! he does?!

Of course he does!!

He throws a tantrum

Can never be wrong oh no he can’t stand it!!

He’ll throw his kin away just to give his silent rant

And brother really?

Is that really all it took?

It was never about the money for me

You’ve stolen that from me since we were kids

It was never about the reason of your plead

It was semi-valid but you see

I had lost trust in you so many times growing up,

then our father passed and our mother followed

and all of a sudden it was just the 3 of us

..that lasted but a tomorrow

I thought,

Silly of me really..

But I thought that trust might just stay

See big brother..

Not the money

Nor the reason

But the lies, the thieving

All you had to do was ask

All you had to do was mention

All you had to do was respect

All you had to do was show some appreciation

You couldn’t even fold the deck that was already done for

I’ll give you props on the stubbornness, the devotion

But the lie circled, and I don’t think you’re mad that I caught you in it

I think you’re mad you caught yourself

I just claimed your actions’s consequence

Which by the way the little bro did the same thing!?!

Grace..

grace..

he’s immune I guess???

So while you punish me for what could have been a simple conversation

While you don’t send me your wedding invitation

While you destroy any fucking sort of relation we had

Remember.

You’ll Never Walk Alone.

You’ll walk with no dignity

You’ll walk with shame

You’ll walk with everything mommy and daddy didn’t want you to be

You’ll walk without a sister

You’ll walk without an aunt to your kids

And don’t you dare say I could have ended this

I for once in my goddamn life, I am standing up to you

Towards the end, mother wasn’t even schmoozed

I’ll use what you taught me!!

Stay hard headed through and through!!

And one day you’ll regret this

But I won’t be there to care

As more time ticks by, I am already getting there

Don’t get me wrong, I wouldn’t be writing this if it didn’t fucking hurt me

But my forest is

destroyed.

So can you please

Please.

grow your first ever

olive tree

So you can simply pass me a single branch

It’s always been an easy task for me

But it’s your turn

just this once

Put pride aside

Relieve my forgiveness

Even your lies are tired

I’ll never forget this

So..

What will it be?

An olive branch, or the family tree?