My Body

My body is amazing! Come to think of it…

My one and only temple, I was given to walk this path of life!

Although it’s been both battered and bruised:( inside and out), poisoned and beat; it has carried me and not given up on me for 32 years!

The greatest and most cherished gift my body has given me… is allowing me to make and create not one but three human live’s!!

It grew and stretched in places once fairly firm and smooth to the touch.

A big round belly, as a baby lay inside me… fluttering and flipping. Kicking, punching and often times hiccuping.

My body pulling and craving all the nutrients my baby needed.

Breasts growing and heavy as my body prepared food for their little tummy.

My legs, muscles,joints and bones supported at least 40 extra pounds of weight.

My body was my safest and most reliable vessel to grow from a seed to child,after child ,after child.

Now my tummy’s flatter and empty. Covered with “tiger stripes” for each time my babies grew and fluttered in my belly.

My breasts are no longer heavy; though now they too lie sad and empty.

My back has aches and pains from child labor and life in general.

My body, although growing weaker from all the abuse, produced three healthy babies, & gave me the tools and strength to birth them into existence (life).

It even ensured I had the food to nourish my tiny human. Ya, my body is AMAZING!!

But let’s talk about the abuse and neglect I gave it…

Caffeine and some nicotine, waters so gross…

Oh well, how about some booze and meth?

No need to worry there heart, I haven’t forgotten about you and the other side, this tenderness you have.

Let’s flood you with fear, stab you with pain… you’re still hanging on?

Try self-doubt and a pinching of heartache.

My body lies here battered and bruised from the inside out. I have yet to reach the part about my soul.

My inner most being, the absolute core of me!

How can you describe something, for which there lie no words?

Yet words were burned upon it, bits and pieces slowly chipped or drastically ripped away.

I begged and I pleaded. Screamed and exclaimed! Before tears came streaming down my round cheeks.

Thoughts came flooding through fogging my brain…

PAIN along LOVE forever engrained…

~ We are all born into this world with only one body.

One single fragile vessel to carry our souls.

If only we could understand much sooner, if properly maintained and well taken care of our bodies/ vessels would last us much longer.

More “time” here on Earth to grow and share laughter with loved ones.

I feel like our very one body is one of the first things we take for granted. Literally abuse it in one way or the other. At least it’s been that way for me.

My point being I haven’t been kind to my body and I can now see and feel the damage that’s been done.

It was a realization like HELLO! How can you blame your body for all these issues; then to sit there think and ponder on how much your body has been through and done.

I am in awe of my body and all it’s endured and carried me! Though unable to go back and love my body from the start and realize it’s importance, I can start now. I can treat my body with the love and care it needs.