Midnight Apathy

It was no concern to me,

The feeling of absolute uncared,

Of numbness and

Dissociation.

Every night,

My little foundling snoring softly,

I no longer feel the joy of motherhood,

Or the gentleness of my selfless culture.

The numbness spreads and soon

Envelops me from the inside to the outside.

Its weightless,

It tingles on my skin.

But the numbness follows

Like a wedding veil.

A deep breath,

A heavy exhale,

And I can feel myself floating.

I am numb,

I disappear into my mind,

I am empty.

I feel no love,

No joy,

No stress,

Or even anger.

I am disinterested in

The night.

What is this feeling?

This...

Lack of emotion?

Is there a name for this nightly

Diselevation?

Is it simply

Midnight Apathy?