Me and my Moon

Me and my moon

She shines just for me

It’s only the two of us

As usual, the rest of the world is asleep

Leaving the glow for me alone

I don't have to share the night

Only one or two passing headlights

The other chair empty

This is mine and the joy can never be stolen

The foghorn is our only guest

Or am I the guest to a nightly routine?

That's fine, I'll stay still for them to carry on their normal

I am privileged just to be here, at the ocean

For the first time ever, here, missing home

My fluffs

My stuff

Almost 30 bringing light to more

What is this?

I skipped my city, knowing it wasn't the same

The California dream no longer on my mind each day

So is this it?

I'm finally the woman, totally satisfied with her own life

The harbor moving in ways that tell me those longing days are over

My home is within me and wherever I take her

Me and the moon have been out here for hours

And the foghorn - mustn’t forget the only contingency is me

I guess it is that time

2 AM, the magic number

Bars close (not where I'm from)

Commuters start (long ones)

Or the partiers rest their heads

But for me and the moon, it's the hour I settle in

Sleep always escapes me, but this is her norm

Her purpose

So why do I always try to fight it?

This isn't about the moon anymore, but God, it isn't about my head either is it?

The harbor fills as she rises higher in the sky

How amazing and powerful that she controls the tides

How divine to sit and watch her physically rise

Being a duck for all the things I can't control

I don't want control

I'm bad at that, I'm told

But maybe it's time

My pain wasn’t without reason and now there's need

To handle the BS and be the woman I needed

Be the woman I wish I was

You already are her!

Validation?

So what if they don't see it?

Isn't that part of the problem?

Your worth, capabilities, talent, & opinions always stifled

But you're on the brink of a breakthrough!

You're an air sign, floating

The solution is to ground, right?

No! I don't want to ground

This place is awful

That's why I haven't been here

My heart was torn to shreds

So, what, find another who wants to escape to the clouds just as much

No!

You cannot do that because they're never awake either!

Except for one and that could never be

How lovely, a bird chirping in this quiet night

I've never heard them up this late with me

Is that only here?

Or is it just that you see?

Why does no one else see?

Are you twisted or visionary who can see the past the façade?

They try to keep you quiet by putting you in a box

Your escape taught you not to be mad at God

While teaching you that you are all you need

So be the goddess you are

The moon says so, tonight and every night

She's always there

And just like you she changes each day of the month

So follow

Listen

Be

Fuck all those imposters who would be dead if they lived a day in your shoes through the lens of how they treat you