Sometimes I think about a time
where my parents never met
A world my mama couldn't miss me
Because she hasn't met me yet
In that life, there is no fear
There's no longer muffled crying
She doesn't force herself to be strong
When I know she's tired of trying
No doors are slammed. She doesn't worry
about footsteps coming down the hall
In that life, No one's allowed
to ever make her feel small
No one leaves her in the dark
or strips away the light from her eyes
No anxiety. No stress. No one
to fill her head with lies
No one sits and holds her close
Only to keep her from leaving
She finally gets to know herself
Instead of living her life grieving
In that other life, she's not aware
that there is no little me
But it's okay, she's happy
My mama is finally free
She's smiling as she dances
barefoot on the kitchen floor
turning up the radio and singing
from deep within her core
She opens windows in her bedroom
humming songs she's always loved
Never worried if she looks fat
all her clothes fit like a glove
My mama sacrificed her dreams
to build a life she never chose
So, in that dream, I'm glad I'm gone
and that she never knows
I smile and I watch her
in that life where she is whole
Free to be whoever she wants
Instead of under his control
Never forced to put her dreams
on a dark and dusty shelf
she doesn't need anyone to save her
My mama finally chooses herself
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Sara Wilson
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'20/20'
"Do It Again" the track that would ultimately open the Beach Boys final album on Capitol Records which was released on February 10th 1969 had originally been released as a single in August of 1968. The track was the first of many post-Pet Sounds era throwbacks to the early Beach Boys sound which would become continually more cliched and eventually lead the Beach Boys to the level of self-parody they would eventually succumb to in the 1980s while their closest contemporaries The Beatles nearing the end of their run in 1969 would go on to be viewed as the most influential band of all time. However, the song itself is not bad on its surface, and it opens with a futuristic sounding (for 1969) drumbeat captured by then-Beach Boys engineer Stephen Desper using tape delays on the drums performed by Dennis Wilson and John Guerin. The song has been re-recorded numerous times over the years on various Beach Boys-related projects most notably the 2011 re-recording at Capitol studios featuring the five surviving Beach Boys at the time backed instrumentally by various members of both the Brian Wilson Band and Mike Loves touring "Beach Boys" to promote the then upcoming Beach Boys 50th Anniversary reunion tour in 2012. The hammering and power drill sound at the end of the song was an excerpt from a track called "Workshop" that was to be a part of the uncompleted "SMiLE" album.
By Sean Callaghan7 days ago in Beat
Comments (4)
Phenomenally-written Sara! So heartfelt! Your mama is beautiful btw! ☺️
This poem feels written right from the core of the heart. Just true emotions coming out. Well done
This is so beautiful, Sara, just the thought behind it, the sacrifice…you have expressed the “what if” with such elegance, while also letting the reader know the ugly truth of the reality.
Man! That got me right in the feels. This is you saying 'I'd give my life, anything to see her live in happiness' without a second thought... Commendable and admirable to even have thought this up, Sara. 💖