I'm Sorry- But I'm Not

"Just say you're sorry." But I'm not...

I mean, I wish you couldn't tell...

I'd say I'm sorry... but I'm not.

And I don't even wish you well.

Maybe I'm still angry,

But I won't say that... instead...

I'd say, "I'm sorry." But I'm not...

In fact, my empathy is dead.

There are so many things I wanted to say then.

I wanted to be seen.

But I won't say I'm sorry now.

Some slates can't be wiped clean.

So, let's skip to the good part.

The climax of the scene.

I'll tell you all the worst parts of me

and what they really mean.

I no longer accept apologies...

Let me tell you in advance.

I won't let you close enough to hurt me.

I won't even take that chance.

I'll tell you the truth, no matter what

if you ask me for advice.

I won't allow you to waste my time

and I won't ask for something twice.

I don't trust easily anymore.

I'm still plucking daggers from my heart.

If you asked me "why?" and who hurt me

I wouldn't even know where to start.

I no longer make excuses

for the shitty things that people do.

If you tell me that you love me,

I'll make you prove that it is true.

The sweetness has abandoned me

All that's left is spice.

I won't let you disrespect me.

I guess I'm no longer "nice".

I'd say I'm sorry... but I'm not.

The world made me this way.

You want me to be sorry... but I'm not...

I mean... what more can I say?

You want me to feel remorse?

You wish my boundaries could be budged...

But if they are the worst parts of me...

then I'm ready to be judged.