Loss of a Loved One.

Your mourning, suffering and sorrow are 💯 % the the absolute PITS! Guaranteed. Validated. Confirmed.

The feelings are truly indescribable.

They come and go as they please, like a school of sharks ripping at your inner being.

Some moments a nibble. Undercut. Side Swipe. To full blown frontal assault. And you are left limp and immobile. Paralyzed as they have their way with you. Truly! TRULY! Horrendous!

Pure emotional Gore.

All this chaos. All this internal mayhem.

They are all for your benefit.

These are your feelings, they are real and they are pure.

They are wonderful by nature as they truly seek your triumph.

They are “awe”thentic 😉

It is truly a battle and it is not won easily.

It is a struggle!

It is a fight!

The moments you feel these in their varying degrees, feel them to their fullest extent, and as best as you can.

This is healthy.

These are appropriate reactions.

These are your truest being.

As you crumble you are actually gaining ground.

You are winning. With every felt feeling.

These are the “negatives”

They are the equal and the opposite to.

Real feelings you had for the one you lost.

You honour your loved ones by feeling these.

You celebrate their beloved character by going through the “ick.”

For it is the complete opposite of the feelings THEY gave you in their presence.

This is the “absent”

The reflection.

The opposite of when they where “present”

Take comfort in these.

Their absence is reflecting upon you all the love and joy they gave to you and felt for you in their presence.

Your mourning celebrates their love for you, and you for them.

Your sorrow sings the praises of their character, and yours.

You truly honour them, by honouring yourself in your very real “present.” The Wreck. The deluge. The process. The feel.

Truly beautiful.

You are winning by means of empathy.

You feel.

Your real.

Your “lack of” is real.

Your full of awe.

“Awe”thentic

Authentic.

Beautiful.

Wonderful.

Righteous.

Your fruiting bodies, or things that come to the surface. Your “Mushrooms” can NOT and do NOT show nearly what is happening beneath, amongst the mycelia network.

DO NOT FORCE THESE!

They come by way of the natural.

The state.

The condition.

The love.

The “ick.”

The Joy.

No person can claim to truly know of this network by means of mushroom presented.

Only the feeler.

It’s yours.

Not a single feeling you feel or mushroom presented is inappropriate.

For as the “not present” use to shine upon you, their absence, their light, has NOT gone out!

It has been “fractured” through you.

Light through a prism, casting their rainbow upon you.

Every colour invoking the equal and opposite of their past “present.”

Your mushrooms sprouting for every colour presented, and every shade.

Random. Spontaneous. Impulsive.

Rejoice in your sorrow, it is proof you are fighting.

The Good Fight.

The Real Fight.

Never shame yourself for this fight, how, when, where, in, on, amount, perceived quantity, perceived quality, perceived “lacking.”

All their various battle fields.

You are beautiful and there is true, pure, wonder and nobility within your fight.

Your hip has been broken, and it will heal, and after it heals, YES! it will ache from time to time.

It will act up.

Their will be pains by scar.

These are not scars.

These are betterments.

These are remembrances of a life lived.

A life shared.

A life loved.

Received.

Given.

Feel your feelings.

They SEEK your betterment.

By Humility They WILL reward you betterment.

In the beneath.

In the mushroom. 😉

You are bettered, more suited.

Your a warrior now.

Better practiced.

Better prepared.

The next WILL come.

It will not break you. You have fought your fight.

You know how to fight.

How to feel.

Feel them full.

Your alive.

Your wonderful.

Your loved ones are wonderful.

Your “not present” are radiant.

Your radiant.

The next fight WILL come.

Our flesh is MORTAL.

Feel the feel.

It’s all betterment for your time, your turn to “shine on.”

Go live.

Your alive.

Live.

Bless you all! 🙌