Leanin’

Leanin', my heart crushed by your adrenaline rush,

your hands and legs showing expressions of hate on me with every word or touch,

i thought it was just us, us against the world, whether toward me or compounded,

I never knew how or when the explosion would arrive, but afterward

I'm full of pain and agony,

with nobody but maybe this career that's called a purpose by my name,

do I still cross your brain??

I attempted to defend myself at first,

but then you beat the fight that was inside out, without a doubt I'm confused,

you claim you love me but in the end, I see hate and that friend that I thought existed never existed after consistently being beating

My physical, mental and emotional state at stake,

when can I rise, after I reach for help, I start to see it's only me to make the changes in my life, myself,

All Self-Love, No hate, just lean on me...